Empty Promises...

"I promise that I will never leave your side, I will be with you forever, I love you forever..."

Familiar?

Well, if these promises are kept, I am sure that the world will be a much better place. How many times have someone made these promises to you? or how many times have you made these promises to someone and broke them?

Relating to one real life encounter:

I was very much in love with him. Our relationship started on the wrong foot as I was in a relationship with another guy. He started being a brother to me, but soon after, I saw something in him that really attracts me, his sincerity and efforts touched me.

To touch on this point, I was being unfaithful to my boyfriend then yes, but my boyfriend then didn't exactly love me, it was pretty much of he's lonely and just needed someone. It was a pretty loveless relationship. =) Will be explaining more about this in another entry... let's get back to my current one.

When I broke off with my boyfriend then, it was an immediate switch of boyfriend. No breaks in between, no resting time. Although my relationship with my "ex" was loveless, it just kinda hurts afterall it was an break-up. (Relationship lifespan: 2 months) And i was very very young, so i coped with my breakup spending more and more time with him who became my boyfriend. Crying in his arms, and him trying his very best to make me happy, and to forget my "ex" then.

*I know that this above scenario has happened to alot of you out there too, using someone to forget another person. This way is the fastest way to forgot someone, but if you do it often enough, you will start losing control of yourself, so please forget someone the healthy way. =)

Back to story, soon enough, i forgot my "ex" then and everything else with him was simply wonderful. I felt that I was really being loved, being taken care of. All the promises of "I will be loving you forever"... I ate every single lovey-dovey words that he feed me with. Basically i was in the stage that i can practically eat off his fingers. I was so much into him, too into him. (very very unhealthy...)

And so enough, I was totally dependent on him, I had no life at all. Bascically my life revolved around him. Day in day out, I only wanted to see him, talk to him and do everything with him. In the end, he wanted to break up with me, but i held on, i became his toy. He called me back whenever he wants, and threw me away whenever he doesn't "want" me.

The cycle carried on until I met with an accident that caused me to be disfigured (I am fine now.. =) ) and he totally left me from then on. He didn't even come to the hospital to visit me, or offered me any words of concern, he simply just couldn't be bothered.

At this point of time, i would like to ask you readers, whose fault was it that caused this relationship to end this way?

Was it mine? or his?

He ended the relationship telling me that there wasn't what we called true love at all for the past 1 year we had been together. It was just a bit of liking here and there, and he didn't love me. Empty promises... Why say them when you can't keep them?

Well, I will really appreciate some response from my question above.. so keep them flowing! I will give you my answer the next entry.

Till then, feel free to drop me a mail anytime regarding anything!

Peace out!