Have you ever been in that situation, where you lost total confidence of yourself, you start putting on a mask and wish no one can ever guess what you are really thinking in your mind, or feeling in your heart?
It is a state of inferior complex due to whatever had happened from past experience, or maybe a few incidents that caused every single part of you to feel degenerated. The key word here is to "feel" degenerated. Feeling does not equal to being so, it's just a state of mind that requires fine-tuning, and having the courage to reach out once again for the stars.
White lies, stories and cover up is what a weak person will use to come across, seemingly way stronger than others, to hide their weakness and hide their lack of courage. It could be a sense of dis-belief in oneself, or maybe a temporary loss of hope in him/herself.
This article is all about coming face to face with the person you see when you stand in front of the mirror every morning, instead of putting on that different masks every morning, every hour of the day, it's time to stay true, minimally, to yourself. Yes you, the one you see in the mirror. =)
The three words, "I am sorry" is not the easiest words to utter or say out of a person's mouth. Learn how to say, "I am sorry" to myself for all the hurt and trauma you have caused to yourself, instead of saying sorry to the person you seemingly hurt. Be truly sorry to yourself. Being sorry to yourself, is not the same as self pity, nor the same as being sorry for yourself. It's a simple three words to say to yourself that you know you have faulted and hurt yourself, and it's time to accept and move on.
Being through a stage of self-frustration will definitely follow. A million questions "why".. all these would not matter at all, because knowing the answers to whys, will only cause the wound to be deepen, thus it will definitely be harder to recover. Learn how to walk away from asking why, learn to accept that things are this way, because of mistakes that human makes, all human makes mistakes right?
Saying "I am sorry" to yourself, helps you to release that guiltiness you feel towards everyone, and release the remorseful pain buried in your heart.
It will definitely take quite a while in order to stop thinking, and stop getting troubled by the tons of questions that has been haunting you, but remember, if you don't start doing so, you will just be stepping on the same spot, jogging on it.. running on it. It ain't healthy.
Human errs, people who does not forgive people who makes mistakes will never learn how to forgive themselves too. Knowing how to say sorry to yourself, will aid you in forgiving that one person who have caused you pain/damages.
Live on, it's all about getting there.
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