Toy Soldiers

This post will be repeated both here and at GULB's blog. -> www.geturlifeback.blogspot.com

Yesterday on the way home... and one of the songs that used to be my favourite a long long time ago was playing over the radio...

The thing about me, is I will get attracted to a song, because of the lyrics, and the meaning and feelings that the singer is trying to convey through her voice, through the lyrical sound...

Bringing to you the lyrics of the song, Toy Soldiers by Martika
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1uKQMTXt9hw

It wasn't my intention to mislead you
It never should have been this way
What can I say
It's true, I did extend the invitation
I never knew how long you'd stay

When you hear temptation call
It's your heart that takes, takes the fall
(Won't you come out and play with me)

(Chorus)
Step by step
Heart to heart
Left, right, left
We all fall down
Like toy soldiers

Bit by bit
Torn apart
We never win
But the battle wages on
For Toy soldiers

It's getting hard to wake up in the morning
My head is spinning constantly
How can it be?
How could I be so blind to this addiction?
If I don't stop, the next one's gonna be me
Only emptiness remains
It replaces all, all the pain
(Won't you come out and play with me)

My interpretation of this song if i were the singer:

This love was a forbidden love, a love that i should not have tried for, neither should i fight for it.
I did, and i really wanted it, and i know, that it is not going to last, but i still want it, because, just the little bit of comfort, might be enough, for me to last this lifetime.

I know, that I am a temptation to you, it could have not be me, and someone else could be a temptation... but is it because you are just too weak? or because the love between you and her... the bond that you claimed, you sure it's strong? Because, it's all in the heart... emotions runs like blood in your body...

If we carry on, yes.. we will just all fall down, get torn apart, get hurt like toy soldiers. we might end up emotionaless... without strength or will to carry on, because we are nothing, we are lifeless.

You are just like an addiction, i just cannot get enough, i just keep wanting more, even though i know that.. one day, I will just be the one, who will be left in a pool of blood.. and might even probably felt that it was all worth it to suffer from the karma from the bad things that i have done... and yup.. end up lifeless.

This song, is a song that i feel deeply within my heart, because, it will definitely makes someone strengthless to face up to reality, to face the music of whatever cheating, or lying relationships...

You see, temptations are always around, if today you are with someone, and you suddenly do feel for another person as well, there is nothing wrong, this are the chemical reactions in our body, this are real feelings that we do experience some times in life, please do not fault yourself for it.

How do you get over the "double" feeling?

You see, the key about falling for two person, is that you really have to be upright and honest to yourself, who do you really need in your life, who can you forsee in your future. Notice i didn't say, who you want. Because, wants and needs are different. You have to need someone to know the importance.

*key important factor here, i said falling and having feelings for two person at the same time, irregardless of whether you are committed to a relationship/marriage or what nots.. FALLING NOT SLEEPING... see the things why i say falling and not sleeping, because sex, it complicates things. so that will be another topic all together.

So yup, i just wanted to share this song, because all you double hearted people out there, feel the lyrics, feel the song and you will know how much you are hurting both of them when you are thinking about both.

Not everyone can be selfless... yes, like i said, love is never competitive, it should be selfless... but it doesn't mean that selfless people does not feel pain.. we do.. because we are still human. :)