We LOVE the BAD!

I know this one man, who has never asked for anything in return for everything he has done for his friends, and that includes me.

I can foresee the first reaction from majority of you:

"this kind of man extinct already la..."

Be surprised, very surprise that in this harsh world we are living in, there are still nice people around, from both gender. People who are kind-hearted, and really really concern about people whom they regards as "friends".

This guy neither have looks nor money, but his heart is made of gold. He was there 24/7.. i mean literally 24/7, he was really there. However, I was never his girlfriend, and that doesn't even matter to him, because he will still be so concerned about me, and tries his very best to be there for me. *Touched*

Remember the saying, "good guys always finish last". I feel that this saying is really really very true, because till today, after knowing this guy for 5 years, he is still single. (He needs a real good girl to take care of him, any takers? =p j/k!)

WHY???!!!???

"Nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai!"

This saying might be true for some people, might be rubbish to some people too. Why do i stand on the fact that we (majority) love the bad? Just thinking about this fact: We cried and struggle, feel pain whenever we are in a relationship that causes us so much agony, when our partner is treating us so badly, and we still hold on, as though he/she is the last man/lady left on this big round Earth. BUT when we are in a lovely relationship, we tend to take our partner for granted (please don't deny this fact.. I am sure you people out there should be guilty of this act at least once!!!).

Of course I am not killing every single one of you out there with this sweeping statement, I know that we do appreciate the efforts that our partners have put in for us too. =)

At this point of us, I urge my readers who are attached to close your eyes, and think about the relationship you are having now, do not hold on just for the sake of holding on. If your partner is not treating you the way you should be treated, he/she is not worth it. Repeat this in your head for a few times, not worth it, not worth it and still not worth it. =)

BUT if you feel that your partner deserve someone better than you (which shouldn't be that way at all, wrong mentality!), go do something about it, and don't ever let me find out that you've dropped your partner for some lame excuses such as he/she deserve someone better, DO something about it then. Be that someone deserving of his/her love. =)

I wish all couples here, good love. =)

Don't love the bad, love the good, for only then, you will be good. =)

First Heart Break...

The first time anyone fall in love, I bet the feeling must be great. First time knowing that you are being loved, being cared for. Showing affections for each other, late night phone calls, wonderful dates, whispering sweet-nothings. Close your eyes, imagine the first time you fall so deeply in love with someone, you thought it was going to last forever. The long kisses, the tight hugs and the different versions of "I love you", when the nights doesn't seems lonely anymore.

All of a sudden...

"I am sorry, but I feel that we can't go on..."

"Why?"

"I found someone new/I need to concentrate on my studies/work/We just can't work things out/I don't love you anymore/I am a bad lover/I don't deserve you/ and etc. the list can go on forever..."

Feel the heart break, feel the pain that you felt at that instant. The whole world just seems crumpling down, you lost all strength, you lost the pillar, you lost all the care and affection that you thought was going to last forever. Tears welling up in your eyes, before you know it, the sky starts pouring, everything turns dark. You are totally lost, totally confused, totally crushed.

Guess what I did?

I listened to the song "How do I live" and drank dettol. I felt like dying, I felt that I was made used of, felt so inferior, so lousy that I wish that I can just end my life there and then. Landed up in the hospital of course, and suffered the consequences of my first silly act. Forced to drink bottle after bottle of plain water, and vomitting it all out afterwards. Escaped a police case as I was underaged and the officer decided to give me another chance.

I went home that night, hugged my bolster and cried myself to sleep. It was a relationship, a puppy love that lasted 1 year 3 months, and it was gone with the wind, never to come back again. (I will never want it back again... )

Advice for the depressed who is in the same situation as the above:
Please please please don't try dettol. It doesn't help to kill you, but it just makes you miserable. Ya know drinking what kills you? detergent. =) But NO.. I am not encouraging anyone to commit sucide by drinking detergent. Always remember, puppy love never last, maybe some do, but most of the time, it is really just child's play. After getting over it, you will realise that, it might just be a joke, or some cute memories to keep and smile about.

Puppy love will always be sweet, it can be a disaster or a fairytale. Remember that you are the only one in charge of your life, people can tell you what to do, but ultimately, you make the decision, it's your choice. My choice is to get over it.. and move on.. =)

Someone gave me a very valuable advice during that period of time:
You can stay in the exact same spot for years, just stand there... but the sky will still be blue, the sea will still have waves, and the Earth will still be revolving around... Everyone will move on.. and you can stay behind, all by yourself.

Get your life back. =)

Get ur Life Back!

Welcome to Get ur Life Back~!!! short-form known as GULB. =)


Well well, this little blog will be based on true personal stories, whether it belongs to me or the people around me, offer solutions on how you readers can actually relate back to your own personal life and learn how to manage all the problems/troubles/worries that causes depression, or clinically known as major depressive disorder.

A small introduction about myself, I have been through I guess the worst stage of my life as a young growing adult, committed sucides numerous times that I will be including in my stories later on, learnt how to cope with my depression problems, and most important of all, getting my life back.

Maybe some of you viewing my blog now might be thinking, so this author here thinks that she knows how to cope with life? Or is she just trying to be a smart alec, talking about just pure common sense? Please ponder on this, when someone is caught in the depression web, common sense just seems to float so far away, or they simply chose to "listen to their hearts" and ignore it all together.

Carry on reading, I am sure that maybe some of you will really gain something from reading my entries, or simply just derive laughters and enjoyment from doing so.

Stay tuned people, I promise it won't be disappointing... *at least to majority. =)