Today's topic is about finding yourself.
I am sure that everyone of us here, has experienced what we called a "break-down" period. A state of which you just feel so tired, mentally and even physically and simply couldn't find the strength to move on. I am not perfect, and i do have my break-down periods.
This entry is more about myself, but i know that some people can actually relate to it.
I am juggling between two jobs, a full time job as a sales coordinator in a hotel and being a freelance model. I hardly have enough rest on weekdays due to the late night runway rehearsals and shows that I am doing on the second and third week of the month. Not to complain, I love and enjoy what I am doing as a runway model, because it has always been a childhood dream to walk up that stage just for that few minutes. The feeling is simply great.
However, lately, i came to a decision to quit my hotelier's job. Modelling is just a sub reason of why i quitted, but the main reason is, I am lost. Lost in the sea of never-ending work that I have been trying to battle ever since i started work at the hotel. After thinking everything through, I know that I am not cut out to be a hotelier, not because i can't, but i just didn't have the passion to.
After working in the hotel for 4 months, I realise that having passion in what you do is the top most important thing, if not you will never put your heart into it. I use to soar during the days when i was working as an event coordinator with my old company, but I felt that i have achieved nothing so far in my 4 months of service in my hotel line. Doesn't all these boils down to just one word, "passion". =)
Finding myself; This is very very important to me now, and it is also very crucial to all of you out there to know what you want, what you need, and who you really are, because only when you know who you are, you are able to define your goals in life, subsequently mapping out how you want to achieve your goals.
I am someone who wants to work for something I am passionate about, it is never about how much I am being paid, but how much I can really contribute to my job. I believe that if i really love my job, i will be able to excel in it. The same goes out to everyone of you. Afterall, although money might be a very big factor, happiness is what that keeps someone determined to stay alive. Obviously, if by earning lots of money brings you happiness, then i got nothing to say. =)
People, wish me luck after the 6 August 2007 where my service at the hotel will be terminated. and look forward to more updates which will be coming up real soon...
In the meanwhile, same thing once again, e-mail me at geturlifeback@gmail.com for any advice that you need... I am always here.. reply guaranteed in 24 hours and this service is 100% free. =p
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Friday, July 13, 2007
Victim of "Love"
Just a life experience that I wish to share with you readers. =)
This happened when I was secondary 2 going secondary 3, at that point of time, I was still naive and very ignorant. It was then, when i started with my first boyfriend. It took me a lot of courage to actually accept him, knowing the fact that we might not have a future together because of my strict family background, and him being someone who doesn't know what he wants in the future and bums around.
The first month of relationship was fine, just like any honeymoon period, it was pure puppy love.
However, after the first month, things started changing. He became very abusive, both physically and verbally. He never fails to find fault with me, to scold me or even beat me up for no reason. He threaten to break up with me for no reason on my birthday that year but time and time again, I refused to let go due to my "then" thinking about him being my first love and thought that things could actually change for the better. I was totally wrong, he just carried on with his "outrageous" behaviour towards me, hurling vulgarities, physical abuse, and making me feel that I was worthless. I became like his slave.
This went on for a period of 1 year 3 months when i took the first step out of this torturous relationship. I told myself that I had enough. With the support of my friends, I got out of the deep drowning hole and started to learn how to stand on my own, and say "No" to him. I started going out with my friends, and step by step, I slowly forget him although the scars that he left within me, still haunt me sometimes.
I know that, there are girls or maybe even guys out there who did or maybe still experiencing a abusive partner. Please remember one point, noone deserves to be treated badly by their partners UNLESS you are doing the same too. Nevertheless, if two person starts getting abusive with each other, there is absolutely no point in carrying on the particular relationship.
Noone is worthless, you know that you deserve someone better if your partner doesn't know how to treat you right. Learn how to stand up for youself and say "No, I had enough". If it's very difficult for you to do so, get your friends to help. It will definitely hurt in the beginning, knowing that you've already gave in alot just to hold on to the relationship but ultimately, it's your own happiness in hands.
Abuse cases varies... If anyone of you out there are experiencing abuse from your partners and needs help, drop me an e-mail. I will try my best to help you in whatever ways I can.
This happened when I was secondary 2 going secondary 3, at that point of time, I was still naive and very ignorant. It was then, when i started with my first boyfriend. It took me a lot of courage to actually accept him, knowing the fact that we might not have a future together because of my strict family background, and him being someone who doesn't know what he wants in the future and bums around.
The first month of relationship was fine, just like any honeymoon period, it was pure puppy love.
However, after the first month, things started changing. He became very abusive, both physically and verbally. He never fails to find fault with me, to scold me or even beat me up for no reason. He threaten to break up with me for no reason on my birthday that year but time and time again, I refused to let go due to my "then" thinking about him being my first love and thought that things could actually change for the better. I was totally wrong, he just carried on with his "outrageous" behaviour towards me, hurling vulgarities, physical abuse, and making me feel that I was worthless. I became like his slave.
This went on for a period of 1 year 3 months when i took the first step out of this torturous relationship. I told myself that I had enough. With the support of my friends, I got out of the deep drowning hole and started to learn how to stand on my own, and say "No" to him. I started going out with my friends, and step by step, I slowly forget him although the scars that he left within me, still haunt me sometimes.
I know that, there are girls or maybe even guys out there who did or maybe still experiencing a abusive partner. Please remember one point, noone deserves to be treated badly by their partners UNLESS you are doing the same too. Nevertheless, if two person starts getting abusive with each other, there is absolutely no point in carrying on the particular relationship.
Noone is worthless, you know that you deserve someone better if your partner doesn't know how to treat you right. Learn how to stand up for youself and say "No, I had enough". If it's very difficult for you to do so, get your friends to help. It will definitely hurt in the beginning, knowing that you've already gave in alot just to hold on to the relationship but ultimately, it's your own happiness in hands.
Abuse cases varies... If anyone of you out there are experiencing abuse from your partners and needs help, drop me an e-mail. I will try my best to help you in whatever ways I can.
Monday, July 2, 2007
Dealing with your Parents' Divorce
The divorce rate in Singapore is seriously increasing. Apart from me talking about how two person should live their life together, how about coping with your own parents splitting up?
Well, I am sure that there are people who has either undergo such an issue in their family, or could even be going through it now.
Imagine late at night say 2am, you hear screamings and things breaking coming from your parents' room, sisters crying out of fear, and you simply feel so useless because in no way, you can actually interfere in your parents' matter. and the thunder comes striking down, "I want a divorce!"
Your heart sank... Tears just flow out of your eyes uncontrollably. You don't exactly seem to understand what has happened, and neither can you foresee what will be going to happen.
There is alot of consequences when a family split up, and the "parents" have to be able to handle the aftermath.
I will never blame my parents if they finally decide to get a divorce, because i really don't want to see both of them suffering anymore, particularly for my mom. I know my dad will be fine on his own, especially now that he has a proper job and is well-taken care of by his boss. The two person I am most worried about, my two younger sisters. They are still young, and they need both their parents by their side now that they are growing up. Besides, asking them to choose between my dad and mom will totally traumatise them. Life will never be the same after your parents split up, I know that my life will not be the same soon.
As the second eldest in the family, I can only say that the way to deal with the split up, is to stay strong. Set a good role model for your younger siblings as they will always be looking up to you, and going to you asking you why all these will happen. Be patient with your younger siblings as it can get quite frustrating as they won't be able to understand even if you explain to them.
Basically, it is really heart-breaking to see your parents splitting up, but always remember that, life goes on. You might not see one of them everyday, but at least, know that it is for the better. Always be there to guide along your younger siblings because they need you. I can never say the words, "Don't let it affect you so much" because it does affect, and it affects you on a big scale.
For me, I know that I will learn how to cope with it when that feaful day arrive.
Till then, if anyone out there needs help, please do just drop me an e-mail at geturlifeback@gmail.com
Peace.
Well, I am sure that there are people who has either undergo such an issue in their family, or could even be going through it now.
Imagine late at night say 2am, you hear screamings and things breaking coming from your parents' room, sisters crying out of fear, and you simply feel so useless because in no way, you can actually interfere in your parents' matter. and the thunder comes striking down, "I want a divorce!"
Your heart sank... Tears just flow out of your eyes uncontrollably. You don't exactly seem to understand what has happened, and neither can you foresee what will be going to happen.
There is alot of consequences when a family split up, and the "parents" have to be able to handle the aftermath.
I will never blame my parents if they finally decide to get a divorce, because i really don't want to see both of them suffering anymore, particularly for my mom. I know my dad will be fine on his own, especially now that he has a proper job and is well-taken care of by his boss. The two person I am most worried about, my two younger sisters. They are still young, and they need both their parents by their side now that they are growing up. Besides, asking them to choose between my dad and mom will totally traumatise them. Life will never be the same after your parents split up, I know that my life will not be the same soon.
As the second eldest in the family, I can only say that the way to deal with the split up, is to stay strong. Set a good role model for your younger siblings as they will always be looking up to you, and going to you asking you why all these will happen. Be patient with your younger siblings as it can get quite frustrating as they won't be able to understand even if you explain to them.
Basically, it is really heart-breaking to see your parents splitting up, but always remember that, life goes on. You might not see one of them everyday, but at least, know that it is for the better. Always be there to guide along your younger siblings because they need you. I can never say the words, "Don't let it affect you so much" because it does affect, and it affects you on a big scale.
For me, I know that I will learn how to cope with it when that feaful day arrive.
Till then, if anyone out there needs help, please do just drop me an e-mail at geturlifeback@gmail.com
Peace.
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